Oh... Here We Go Again

It's been hard for me to put my support behind someone so deliberately and unapologetically cruel. A person who seems to embody every despicable quality I hope to never glimpse in the heart of my own child. I've come to understand, however, that for some people, the cruelty is the point. I used to think it was a minority of people, but I'm not so sure anymore.

I'm not a fool. I'm not planning to cut off my own nose just to spite my face -- just for the possibility of enjoying some petty "I told you so" sort of revenge. After all, this is my country, too. It's the place I'll raise my son and the world I'll pass on to him, someday. I don't enjoy being wrong, but I've never wanted to be wrong about something so much in all my life.

Just for the record, though... I wasn't wrong the first time around.

I've decided to narrow my world view, for now. Rather than devote any more energy into doomsday scenarios, I'm going to pour myself into giving my son the best childhood I can manage, instead. I'm going to instill in him qualities of kindness and compassion -- qualities mocked right now for weaknesses -- because I know without a doubt that the depth of his humanity will long outlive the lack thereof in others. 

I can't change the world right now... but I'm not done trying.

Sometimes I Hate Being Right

 The Bad Guys won (again).

The battle, anyway. Hopefully not the war.

The Last Two Weeks of America

 It's been a while.

It's an election year, which has become a really traumatizing part of being an American -- at least for some of us, I think. It honestly wasn't too bad until 2016 when I felt absolutely blind-sided by the outcome. The realization that there are a whole lot of people in this great country who feel very validated by such a disgraceful man was nothing less than a total shock to my concept of reality. 

Reality... That's an important word to me lately, as I now feel like I am forced to live in an alternate universe (the Upside Down?) with quite possibly a greater majority of folks who are no longer concerned with loving their neighbor, minding their own business, treating others with the respect with which they would like to be treated... or even the truth. 

THE TRUTH. In this new reality, the Truth doesn't matter anymore. Experts are mocked. Evidence to prove them wrong only makes them dig in deeper to their conspiracies. 

I wanted a better place for my son to grow. I thought there were enough good people left to stop this from happening, but I'd be lying if I said I'm sitting here right now with even a shred of hope left. I think Team Good Guy is going to lose... and I'm sitting in bed right now living out the last couple weeks of America as I know it.