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I just watched Transporter II on the Digi P (don't ask me how, I don't really know), and it was friggin' awesome. I'm pretty sure near the end he was driving a Ferrari and I almost jizzed I was so excited. I've only seen one in person before in my life, and it was one of those moments when you remember every little detail. It was black, it was awesome, and it was unlike any car I'd ever seen before. Of course I'll never own one. It would probably cost more than any house I could ever afford. O what a world.

Today I read through all my old woohu entries. Actually no, that's a lie. Just all the entries that I made my freshmen year up through the summer afterwards. Part of it was because I was bored but mostly it was because I was interested. Just who was I back then? I discovered that mostly... I was just sad. Many of the posts I made were about Andy and my feelings. It's an odd thing that if anyone came up to me and actually asked me about him, I'd probably say nothing but good things, but looking back on the experience, it was truthfully very painful. I can remember only being genuinely happy right near the beginning. The rest was mostly confusion and frustration, broken up by brief periods of happiness. I don't regret it--he was a great lesson for me to learn, and I wish him nothing but the best--but I'm thankful that what finally happened did. If I had stuck around and tried just a little harder, I believe I would've missed out on the one opportunity to find who I was truly supposed to be with. I know one day Andy will find the same.

I've enjoyed this semester tremendously for many reasons. For the first time I felt like I absorbed something useful from my classes. I made some great friends, and I got closer to several old. Even living with Mike proved to be an experience that surprised me. I expected it to be harder (though at times it was). I was shocked at how natural it seemed. He and I.... we passed yet another test. But then... I was never worried that we would fail.

I'm looking forward to Christmas, tomorrow, and next year. :)