The weekend was good--I got to relax and spend some quality time with good friends. I could get used to three days instead of two, but all good things must come to an end.
One of my best friends (Beth) called me tonight to tell me that her boyfriend, Matt, asked her to marry him today. I could hear her smile even miles away through the sound of her voice, and I was so happy for her. I felt myself undergo a series of different emotions that I find difficult to explain--from surprised, to happy, to envious. It will be quite a while before I'm anywhere near the point in my life when marriage will be appropriate. So many years of school left; so much to do before it could happen. Had it been a different time I would've married Mike a year ago... but it's not a different time. It's this time, and because it is, it will just have to wait, no matter how sure I am of my choice. Finding someone you want to grow old with isn't something I'm in any mind to screw up by jumping in before I'm ready to swim. I know I want Mike, but I have him, and for now this is all I could ever need. Life is full of baby steps--we'll have plenty of opportunities to take the leap.
Yet I can't help sometimes but look at him and realize what I've found in him. It's a feeling only I can ever truly understand.
2 comments:
:-D
I think that i'm the lucky one in this relationship!
As I always say, we're both lucky. Why should you get all the glory? ;-)
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