June

June means more June bugs bothering me at my bedroom window late at night before I turn out my lights. Which makes me want to puke in my mouth.

I finished my IPPE and it was really rewarding. At first it was intimidating and I didn't know what I was doing, but I started to enjoy it and feel useful. On my final day when I received my evaluation from my preceptor, she had so many glowing remarks to make about the work that I did and my progress over the three weeks. It really felt awesome. Just awesome. When I was at Sindecuse I also received a good review, but I felt a little like the pharmacist Bill was biased with me because he knew me beforehand and really liked me. He knew me as a person, and his opinion of me had time to mature and grow with time. At the hospital I was a stranger and I only had a measely three weeks to prove my worth, so it really meant something when they ended up thinking I did really well. Sometimes pharmacy school kind of blind sides me... makes me feel like a complete idiot. It's refreshing when something comes along to give me a bit of a confidence boost.

Kroger starts up later this week, which I'm dreading. Corporate isn't paying me anymore, the actual store is paying me, so now I have to fight over hours with the technicians. That pretty much means I won't get 40 hours a week, which is a bummer. Also, they moved the entire pharmacy and changed everything, to the point that I walked in and wondered if I was in the right place. So, that'll be (not) awesome when I start up again. >_<

June means Mike and I are approaching the one-year-until-the-wedding mark. I can honestly say that the months we've been engaged have been some of the most difficult and trying of our whole relationship. I feel as if we've been tested more intensely and more frequently than ever before. Because love is the only thing which holds us together, lacking as we are in the children and wedding vow department, I know our feelings for one another must be made of some tough stuff. I also know more than ever before that love is giving more when you feel like giving up.